
I LEANED MY HEAD against Randy’s shoulder, my left hand gripping the rod of a protest sign and a small American flag. I felt such profound sadness in that moment. The moment when a pastor asked for a period of silence in honor of Minnesota State Representative/House Speaker Emerita Melissa Hortman and her husband, Mark, assassinated in their home during the early morning hours of June 14.
Flag Day. Nationwide NO KINGS protest day. A day of gathering turned tragic here in Minnesota.

I alternated between leaning into my husband and leaning my bowed head against the bottom of my NO MORE KINGS protest poster held high, the sign with the cursive words, “I value freedom,” scrawled on the back side. The wind blew, swept my hair across my face like a veil covering sadness. The heaviness felt palpable here, in Ames Park in Northfield, along the banks of the Cannon River. But so did the energy.

We were a group of hundreds—maybe even a thousand (I’m not good at estimating crowd size)—gathered to publicly express our concerns about leadership in this country, about decisions being made that negatively affect all of us, about the state of and future of our democracy… It was my first protest. Ever. I wanted, needed, to be here. To remain silent seems complicit.
I’d already arrived when a friend texted that Minnesotans had been advised by state law enforcement not to attend NO KINGS protests. That warning linked to the suspect in the shootings of the Hortmans and of State Senator John Hoffman and his wife, Yvette. We would later learn that NO KINGS fliers were found in the vehicle of Vance Boelter, now accused in the double murders and attempted murders.

That explained why, on the way to the riverside protest, I overheard a woman telling a couple that her police officer son had advised her not to participate in the rally. She was going home. I was not. Nor were any of the others converging on Ames Park at noon. I wasn’t scared. Vested safety people, trained in conflict resolution and de-escalation, were in place. I felt safe in the masses, which, I suppose, is an unrealistic perspective. But I refuse to be silenced by fear, by the words and actions of those who attempt to suppress voices. And intimidate.
And there were those, including the drivers of a white pickup truck and of motorcycles which repeatedly roared past the rally site, spewing their opposition in noise and in political flags bannering messages I won’t repeat. But they, too, have a right to protest. Peacefully. Just as I do. And I wrote that on the back of a second sign: FREE to PROTEST. But, mostly, passing vehicles honked in strong support.

At this rally of people opposing the current administration and its policies and actions, I felt a unity of purpose and a deep, cohesive concern for the future of our country. I felt uplifted, embraced, empowered. Speakers spoke (although I couldn’t hear most). The pastor led us in prayer. We sang—”The Star Spangled Banner” and “We shall overcome.” We cheered. We chanted. We waved our posters and flags. And a group held an over-sized American flag, which I couldn’t see from my vantage point deep in the shoulder-to-shoulder crowd.
We were mostly an older group. Baby Boomers. Grandparents. Even octogenarians. Perhaps some protested during the Vietnam War. Or served this country. We’ve lived a few years, enough decades to understand that we need to rise up against authoritarianism. Enough to understand what’s at stake. But there were some young people, too, like the dad behind me with his preschool daughter playing in the grass. He clearly cares, if not for himself, but then for his child.

The morning after the NO KINGS protest, I left for Madison, Wisconsin, to spend time with my 5-month-old grandson (and his parents). As I snuggled Everett, I thought, he (and my other two grandchildren) are part of the reason I chose to protest. Their lives stretch before them. I want them to live in a country where they are free. Free. I want them to live under a government based on a three-pronged system of checks and balances, not one ruled by a king or some version of a king or dictator. I want them to live in a kind, caring and compassionate country. Not a selfish, uncaring, divisive nation filled with hatred.
I returned to Minnesota yesterday and am catching up on laundry and writing. And, along with my fellow Minnesotans, I’m collectively grieving the assassination of an elected official and her husband. And I’m thinking, this is what it’s come to in Amercia…
© Copyright 2025 Audrey Kletscher Helbling

I thought about you and your family and your governor and others in our state that day when I heard the news. it was hard to fathom and it still gives me chills. it was amazing and inspiring that people were able to gather themselves and still go out and stand for what is right and stand against what is wrong, even as they were grieving. I love the sign at the top as well, and my hope is that with every action we take in the right direction, in the street or from our homes, we move a step closer to finding the peace and kindness and democracy that we all deserve and that our country is all about.
Thank you for being you, Beth, for standing up for peace, kindness, democracy and much more. You are a loving and caring soul.
Beautiful post, Audrey. I’m with you in solidarity and love of the Midwest. I protested in Carson City, Nevada.
Thank you, Lori. And thank you for protesting in Nevada.
Well said, Audrey. Thank you. It was good to be together at the protest.
Our grandchildren are our precious resources. I’m so glad you were able to spend time with your newest grandson!
Yes, it was good to stand with you at the protest. And, yes, our grandchildren are so precious. We loved our time with sweet baby Everett.
That was such a terribly sad day for our state. Thank you for standing up for what you believe.
I’m so glad you were able to spend time with that newest grandchild.
Oh, Rose, spending time with Everett was exactly what I needed in the light of recent events in our state.
Like you, I will always stand up for what I believe. 🙂
While I did not attend any protests , I stand resolute in my support for ALL people. I believe we can all find a way forward in our world and even small actions matter. I was so saddened to hear of more violence in MN.
You are right. Even small actions matter.
I am so proud of you for doing this protest and for posting this! We must speak out! ❤
Thank you, Penny. I refuse to remain silent.
Wonderful, Audrey. And by that, I mean that you went to the protest. We can stay home when things become peaceful and people are taken care of with compassion. Until then….
Until then, we shall let our voices rise in protest.
I am very sorry for what you’re facing in the US. It’s no small thing.
Thank you, Michelle. You are so right. No small thing.
I guess that as things get crazier, as they will for a while, we must just do our best. Thank you for this heart centerer piece.
And things have just gotten a whole lot crazier, it seems.